I went to work for the second time today. I was pretty pumped up having just come off of volunteering to analyze one of the prof’s favorite cases for my summer school class. I did okay and she saved me a couple times. Should make up for missing next Monday on the family reunion trip. The class also got her to concede the following Monday as well given its proximation to the 4th of July.

Speaking of proximation, which brings to mind causation, which brings to mind torts, my least favorite and worse showing in a law school course; I got my first big assignment today. Holy crap, I want to hurl. I still do even after coming home and researching for another couple of hours. I spent 3 plus hours at the firm research this issue vaguely having to do with land torts and damages and statutes of limitation and apparently I was not on the right track. So we went from an oral debriefing to a memo now being due.

I didn’t learn about these kinds of torts in law school. I barely knew where to look. I still have just the slightest grasp on the concept and what I ultimately need to do. Unlike a law school class memo where you have like a month to work through a single issue, there are unlimited issues that could arise. I am supposed to exhaust theories that could be used for causes of action unless one proves fruitful and then elaborate on that. OMG. Talk about insecurity and anxiety. It is so draining to have no command whatsoever over your tragectory.

Anyway, I am compelled to document this because holy sweet god damn, it has to get better than these feelings of “I’m totally screwed.” Confidence. Confidence. Confidence. I can learn tort law and write a memo about it as it relates to the facts of my case in the next 24 hours.

In other news, I’m totally torn on whether to consolidate my loans or not. I might have already missed the deadline. That would be the worst, to miss the deadline and still lose the grace period. It just kills me though to do this without any guarantee that I will be able to maintain a grace period for some other reason like I don’t have enough money because I’m studying for the bar, etc. Oh well, I’ll fill out the form and see if I can talk to someone tomorrow morning.

-jd